From the monthly archives:

December 2008

Happy New Year 2009

December 31, 2008

I’m in a hotel room in lovely Denton, Texas. We are on our way back to Colorado via Oklahoma, where I have never been. We are going to stop at the Oklahoma City bombing memorial to pay our respects. I spent three days sick in San Antonio, and all this family intensity and shadow that came [...]

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Family Stories

December 28, 2008

It’s been difficult being here in San Antonio with my late husband’s family. There are deep, unconscious family stories that are still being played out here. It’s hard being at my in-laws’ house, because of my mother-in-laws Alzheimer’s seems so tragic to me. My bright mother-in-law, physically fit in body, however, her mind is gone [...]

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Surviving the Drive

December 24, 2008

There are a few things I’ve thought of that are comparable to the endurance of child birth. One is a roller coaster ride at Six Flags. These new fangled things are just death traps in that you have to hold on and grit your teeth and endure it until it’s over. And the other is [...]

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Winter Solstice 2008

December 21, 2008

I am in a Comfort Inn hotel room in Las Vegas, New Mexico. My two children and I are on our way to San Antonio, Texas to have Christmas with my late husband’s family.  I haven’t taken this drive in nearly five years, the last time I really visited San Antonio. It’s like a completion [...]

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Death and Renewal in the Solstice

December 19, 2008

Well, I signed the papers for my divorce settlement yesterday. It was a huge relief. It’s freedom. Very symbolic since the solstice is approaching. This whole month of December I don’t feel the rush to shop and get stuff for people. Instead I pull inward more and more as the light disappears and the solstice [...]

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